It Just Doesnt Compare…..

Welcome lady’s and gents , if you haven’t noticed the name of this blog is called The Good, The Bad and The Freaky, lol yes the freaky! This is a blog dedicated 100% to sex, love and more sex. Not only will I be giving you the low down on my freaky escapades but some advice on the things I’ve encountered involving love and sex. So thanks for visiting my blog and I hope you enjoy!!

Todays topic is: Can guys and girls really be friends?

What’s up you wildcats! I am uber excited to talk about this topic today. It has been widely debated for ages and today I want to share my experience with a friends with benefits *couch* sorry “friend”. So at the time I had been a very tumultuous relationship, it was very toxic and it seem endless. A close friend of mine who happened to be a guy hated my ex and always tried to get me away from him. I was very young and dumb and swore I loved my ex and that I wouldn’t find a guy better than him. One night there was a huge fight and I called my friend to pick me up. I told him what I had been going through as usual and he gave me the “your beautiful” speech. Instead of us hitting the bar, club or some scene that wasn’t close to a bridge or any sharp object we headed to his house. I was cool as long as there was alcohol to drown out my pain and music (preferably something I could cry to).

After about an hour of sobbing, drinking and joking we eventually started watching a movie. Now I know what your thinking, I should of known he was going to make a move. Here’s the thing we had known each other for 4 years and we had a brief fling in the beginning but nothing more. We were friends, best friends I was his wing man & he was my rock. Back to the story, we started to cuddle as always and he asked me ,” Do you think if we’d tried to make it work that you could of been happy with me. The question alone threw me because we’d never discussed feeling let alone those for each other.

I don’t know if its was the shots of moonshine and vodka, glass of hennessey or the beer in my system that made me do it but I did it……I KISSED HIM! Not like a peck either, a long passionate and deep kiss. The kind that makes your whole body tingle. It lead further, and at that moment it was more comforting than a kiss on the forehead. We had sex all night and feelings that I never knew I had for him arose. He held me the way I’ve always wanted to be held and didn’t care that I snored lol. For the first time I awoke and felt loved. He made feel free again. But, even in my hung-over haze I knew what we had just done was wrong, no matter how much it felt right.

I had a guy who I still loved, one that was toxic but he was mine still. I instant felt waves of regret that had just messed up such a beautiful friendship. I got up, put on my clothes and left. I didn’t bother to wake him or leave a note, what we had could never be. I returned home to a “boyfriend” who was very apologetic and every bit of toxic. After weeks we settled back into our normal routine of loneliness, isolation and resentment. That one night never left my mind. Life didn’t feel as it once did, when my boyfriend touched me it made me cringe. I had fallen in love with my best friend and I couldn’t bring myself to return his many missed phone calls.

After admitting to myself that my relationship had died I ended it. One night while browsing Facebook I stumbled upon his page. I messaged him not even paying attention to his relationship status or the many pictures of him and his new girlfriend . The message simply read “I’m sorry I ran away, you showed me what being loved felt and looked like and I couldn’t except it. I miss you like crazy but, I know my opportunity has passed. Enjoy her she’s beautiful and I wish you all the happiness in the world. I love you.”

4 years later he is now married with 2 beautiful babies and I have also moved on.

Needless to say he’s the one that got away and ,my stance on tonight’s topic is DONT DO IT! But hey that’s just me maybe you think differently, why not let me know and drop me a comment! & Remember lovebugs safe sex is also great sex!